it's been too long since i've been here.

new year's resolution #1: actually do something with this blog.

so. i've been at home in indiana for about 2.5 weeks. way too long. i've been unemployed for over a month now. the longest stint
of unemployment in quite a while, and i'm freaking out. but... good things are on the horizon. just you wait and see!

being home has been an incredibly stressful thing on my brain. you see, i like girls. unfortunately, i've developed, over time, an
incredibly bad habit about becoming obsessed with girls that i can't possibly get into a relationship with. and i keep the pining
up for an incredibly long time. the longest-running one is going on something like 15-16 years. that shit is crazy.

but.. there's this girl that i like. she's awesome. except, she has a boyfriend. and he's an asshole. he treats her like shit. she breaks up
with him and keeps coming back. in a matter of days, she's moving in with him. she knows he cheats on her. she's still moving in with
him. SHE FUCKING KNOWS HE'S UNFAITHFUL AND SHE'S MOVING IN WITH HIM. it's ridiculous. it makes me cringe every time
i think about it. she deserves more. even if it will never be me, she deserves better. someone who will treat her the way she should be
treated, not someone who berates her,

aargh. it's too frustrating. oh well.